it took a real effort to overturn my ideas on what love is really...i had to break that romantic lurking inside and learn healthy terms for my unhealthy ideas...thus 'i'm falling for you' really means feed my neediness, i am soooo lonely etc, etc, etc. I have the capacity, in my new found wisdom, to turn what was once a beautiful delusion to an ugly and sickly reality. Wow, thank you so very much for that - now i can go on and get on with it, live a productive and satisfying existence second guessing every potential relationship, because now, i have AWARENESS. Blue Pill? Red Pill?
I just read that Billy Corgan's bringing SP back the dead, can ya believe it? www.smashingpumpkins.com this man almost singlehandedly killed me with a couple of his songs, fed me some serious love dogma, and pretty much provided the soundtrack for my twenties. I feel like writing songs again.

LOVE IS SUICIDE.