So i'm up past three am this morning and i've got nothing. Nada. Don't know how it happened but i stumbled onto this really cool site a few minutes ago...well that's not totally accurate, i know my left clicking here and there would have eventually lead me to something, just had no idea what exactly - but it wasn't all chance. Had that Forest Gump moment again, meaning feeling that scene, when he realises life is both a predetermination and a chaos theory rolled into one. I haven't thought about that in years - maybe my head is all sick again. I hope not, unmanagability of those feelings, the miscommunication between head and heart. I knew this would happen, i knew i shouldn't have expected goodness to just start sprouting outta my ass once i put the self medicating down. Silly rabbit.