"you can't seriously believe that i'm thinking about you man..."
- The Dandy Warhols

Having a day of relative peace, the head's not buzzing with spirals of any kind and it feels as though i've turned some kind of corner...will this really last? i'm sitting with the feelings and it's starting to go away, this pining puppy thing over this rehab girl - Hey man, i knew it was never ever going to happen anyway. I just like to stretch the emotional a little, milk it for all it isn't worth. Funny how sometimes you can dream that one person on this earth could fix everything, and even when you intrinsically know that the person can't, it's the much easier and nicer option to think that they can. Deluded? yeah. Silly to have given that much rent but i guess in it's own maddening way, she kept me scared enough to stay more or less on the straight and narrow path. What now, brown cow?